Just ten days ago I wrote here an entry which I titled "Fear Not." I said that I wasn't afraid even though I was short $500 for my expenses and that I was confident that all would be well. I even made a budget that I am sure I can live on once I get past this immediate crisis. Nothing has happened since then of a positive nature and suddenly I am afraid - VERY afraid! Not only that but now I am sad - VERY sad!
My mom, sister, and aunt arrived for a visit this past Tuesday and I have had a great time with them. They met a lot of my friends and we toured around the city. Last night I said goodbye and right about now they are starting up their RV and heading back to the highway on their way home. I am sad! We all hugged last night and my mom started to cry - several times. I stayed strong and tried to keep her from crying. She kept saying though that she may never see me again. (She is 82 years old and her health has not been that good). I am sad! VERY sad! My mom might have been right.
They may say that life is like a box of chocolates (I forget why but wasn't it because it was all so sweet??), but they are wrong. Life is more like the difficult test that your instructor springs on you. You are so angry and sad and confused and everything all at once.
My friends, may I make a request? Say a prayer for me, that I may have the strength to endure. Thanks! And a special thanks to Will and Bertie who have already none that.